so,

things have been fantastical. Maybe not though. because more sucky stuff have been going on than happy stuff. I mean, i should be grateful for being alive and healthy, and having a gorgeous healthy daughter...but idk. there is a lot of shit going on. In March we all have to leave this house because my grandmother is leaving to San Francisco  and my brother and sisters don't really have anywhere to go. it makes me sad to think they really have no one else to rely on but me...they deserve the world, for having to go through all they have. They deserve the entire world and more. They're the most beautiful bunch of kids, they're my babies. And i will be here as much as i can be for them, since no one else is, really. I love them as if they were my own. wich in a matter of fact...they honestly are. Anyway, ive been really wanting to get a new job....easier said than done, but i just really need to get my ass more money. I'm so tired of not having enough money for anything. I want to have nice things for my daughter. My own place,a car for Ivan AND myself. Nice clothes and shoes for both of my lovleys and myself. Ugh, its just so hard. Well honestly, it probably isn't THAT hard, i just have to WORK, hard. Yuh know. and that should be no problem if i keep my daugter in mind. I just want it all to happen fast and i know that wont happen. ughhhhhhhhhlksdfiureyfvhjejfdkdjhoi. Boo.
*sad face

well it will all come as soon as i get my butt working. Ivan as well.God will bless us soon.
hopefully.

*duh