It's insane how you can claim to love someone one minute and then do something that shows that you don't give one fuck about them. Crazy huh? It's one little word that comes out, one sentence. A couple of words. And they can just crush the inside of your soul and break your entire heart. I don't understand why I'm STILL here after all that he's put me through. After six months of darkness. I'm still here. I feel like a grain of sand. With him I'm just a tiny little thing. I am nothing to him. Worthless. His words say something and his actions say something completely different. It's like he doesn't want me to believe him at all. Is he even telling the truth?? Do I believe him? Do I leave him? I can't? Where would I live? What will I do? NONE OF THOSE FUCKING QUESTIONS SHOULD MATTER. What matters is MY DAUGHTER. MEEEEE!!! Not that PIECE OF SHIT. WASTE OF OXYGEN. All he is a germ. It's disgusting. A scumbag, WORTHLESS piece of shiiiiit. I swear I don't know what I'm doing here. What are you doing here? Where are you gonna go? Why don't you go? How are you still there? Why are you still HEREE? Just do something about your future. And out your DAUGHTERS FUTURE. and get through it. Just play it out. Just go with it. And when you're the successful independent one paying for all his junk, then....is the time to leave. When your on your own two feet. Just do it Ashley. You can do it. I BELIEVE IN YOU, if nobody else will.
I love you,
Xoxoxo
Ashley.
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