Inevitable

This is your life there's no way to run from it; the doubt in your brain or the pain in your stomach...

I only have one complaint at the moment:  Don't paint me black when I used to be golden.

I swim in the water that's breaking your levy,

The way that you left me is alright, it's alright. If I argue the point then we yell and we fight, and I won't be home for the rest of the night. You might hate my words, but you know that I'm right.

I hope this makes you sad.

All of this frustrates me bad, 

'Cause I can't stay mad at you or change anything I had. 

Fire

I'm the luckiest girl in the world. Even if I complain, even if I curse your name to the heavens. You're my favorite person on the planet. I can't explain what you mean to me. I love you unconditionally, irrevocably, for the rest of my life. 💋

Yours, now & always.

I live to let you shine.

https://soundcloud.com/gregandthehawk/boats-and-birds 

OCTOBER holds so many memories.

This picture says so much. It brings back so many memories. Happy times. When we were in love. I'd do anything in the world to go back. I miss you, like you have no idea. The feeling back then was so intense i still feel a tinge of it in my stomach as i write this, Always, i get a butterfly in my stomach...still. How much does that tell you. There was no down time for the butterflies in my stomach from the moment i met you. It was instant, fucking instant. You drove me insane. In the best way possible. Now you drive me crazy, in the worst way. I love you, for everything that you've done for me. I love you for how much you've loved me in the past four years. Thank you for treating me different than any other girl. I love you forever.

This, That & This.

With A smile that opens up like a rose does, even when it all felt so fuckin hopeless.

fuck life.

I'm so fuckin moody dude. Like, i don't even know wtf anymore. I'm pretty sure I'm just so unhappy with my life right now that, everything, absolutely everything has me sooooooo fuckin sad. I don't even want to be writing this right now. i just feel like staying in bed till Ivan gets home. i have so many things to say, but cant. so many different things, about so many different things. I hate the fact that i do not have a life. i sit at home, clean up after my kids and make food, and change diapers, give baths and clean some more. i don't have a job where i leave my kids with a baby sitter and see them 5 to 6 hours later...i don't go out with friends, i barely even have a handful of friends. I'm just soooo fucking tired of living this boring mediocre life. I want things to be different, and i know the only person who can make it happen is me. I'm going to do things this year the way i want to. And not just sit on my ass and watch life pass me by.