Sunday, February 19, 2012

Sara knows exactly.

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

SET ME FREE, LEAVE ME BE,
I DONT WANNA FALL ANOTHER MOMENT INTO YOUR GRAVITY.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down.

SET ME FREE, LEAVE ME BE,
I DONT WANNA FALL ANOTHER MOMENT INTO YOUR GRAVITY.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

Friday, February 17, 2012

When your sixteen and you bring your boyfriend home

I'm gonna tell him you farted every five minutes. ❤

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Not even every grain of sand will show you how much

My angel, my darling, my sweet, sugar pie honey bunch💜
Please, don't be in a rush to be big, to be any kind of "grown" I will forever hope you stay a baby. I cannot believe how much you have changed my life.
I'm not looking forward to you thinking I'm the most embarrassing thing on this planet...it will just completely break my heart. I love you so much and I want the absolute best for you my darling. There aren't any words I can put together to actually explain the extent of my love for you Marie. Forever and always my love.

To my sweetest sweet, Aleina Marie.

Your little hand's wrapped around my finger and it's so quiet in the world tonight.
Your little eyelids flutter 'cause you're dreamin' so I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light.
To you, everything's funny. You got nothing to regret.
I'd give all I had, honey, if you could stay like that.

Oh, darlin', don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up.
Just stay this little.
Oh, darlin', don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up.
It could stay this simple.
I won't let nobody hurt you.
Won't let no one break your heart.
No one will desert you, just try to never grow up.
Never grow up.

You're in the car on the way to the movies and you're mortified your mom's droppin' you off.
At 14, there's just so much you can't do and you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots.
But don't make her drop you off around the block; remember that she's getting older too.
And don't lose the way that you dance around in your PJ's, getting ready for school.

Oh, darlin', don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up.
Just stay this little.
Oh, darlin', don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up.
It could stay this simple.
No one's ever burned you.
Nothing's ever left you scarred.
And even though you want to,
just try to never grow up.

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room.
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home.
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said, and all your little brother's favorite songs.
I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone.
So here I am in my new apartment in a big city, they just dropped me off.
It's so much colder than I thought it would be so I tuck myself in and turn my night light on.
Wish I'd never grown up.
I wish I'd never grown up.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Dont let it be.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

Friday, February 10, 2012

My day

Was pretty much boring...
Contained my brother for most of it...
Laundry, neina, laundry, laundry & laundry...
And good music on pandora.

Saturday, February 4, 2012

" O U R " turned into " M Y "


its amazing to me, how much i love you...
how much i just cannot live, eat, sleep or breathe without you.
how much i keep on an keep on with you..
i know you love me.
but to know that if your " IN LOVE " with me is another story.
SAD, but true.
i dont really know anymore...
you'd have to tell me or let me know because lately, i have to go and dig out my answers.
i wish you'd let me know...so i dont figure out later down the road that i've wasted all this this time...
its sad to say all of this, but...im feeling a bit of de ja vu...
and im hating it...
i dont like this.
you were supposed to be the ONE...
now your just ANOTHER ONE.
when your senses will come together is beyond me.
when you'll realize, is out of my reach.
when you open your eyes...i probably will already be gone.

Thee absolute most perfectly, beautiful piece of PERFECTION, PERFECTION.




MY marie.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

you know....

its really, really hard...to be in a relationship by yourself...
its like trying to run a marathon without anybody cheering you on, and encouraging you to keep going....
hopeless.
it takes two to tango.

compromise.
agreement.
half and half.
fifty fifty.
im so tired of this. having the same conversation

OVER AND OVER ANNNNND OOOOVER AGAIN.
w i t h m y s e l f .

its so hard not to want anything, everything, or anyone else.
to envy everybody else's relationship.
to envy the love.
to wish i had a " b o y
f r i e n d " who actually cares. someone who comes home and cant wait to hug you when he walks through the door.
someone who is excited to kiss you.
to hug you, to sleep with you, to hold you...to be next to you.
this kills me.
to be writting t
hese kind of thin
gs again...


i swear.
i swear.
i swear.
i feel, e x a c t l y...the way i felt a year ago...when i hit rock bottom.
the p i t of that somber hole.
helpless, and lonely.
im sure in the morning, hes gonna act like everythings okay...like nothing was said.
im gonna forget, and give
into your B U L L S H I T.

BUT ITS ALWAYS THE SAME SHIT....just like i always do....
IT ALWAYS COMES DOWN TO THIS.
i dont know what else to do....
who to confide in...
because i dont know if a
nyone will beable to understand this madness...
the way my mind just slips away from sanity...
i cant just keep acting like things will get better...
who is gonna make them better...
i cant do it by myself...
and he just sits there...quite, like always...with nothing to say.
and im left, with this g
utter of a " r e a l a t i o n s h i p "



im falling deeper, and deeper into a somber lonely hole.
i look to my right and someone who has been there from the begining.
the boy who took a chance.
the
boy with the five dimples.

falling alongside me...into deep, dark, lonely madness.



Wednesday, February 1, 2012

LOL, dumb mommy?!?!?!?! :b

my niece is too cute.

Dia Framton

Have you ever felt like everybody’s watching
Waiting for you to lose
Have you ever felt like you’re living in a spot light
Searching for the real you
Tell me have you ever woken up
Just to wish you could close your eyes
Getting hard to find a friend in a city like this
Where you can’t even trust a smile

There are lonely nights when you see no hope
And you’re feeling short of breathe
Like a whole damn world is a braded rope
In a noose surround your neck

Don’t kick the chair
It’s gonna get better
Don’t kick the chair
It can only get better

Have you ever felt love, really really felt love
The kind I could save a life
But right before you know it you find out in a moment
You’re gonna have to say goodbye

There are lonely nights when you see no hope
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And you’re feeling short of breathe
Like a whole damn world is a braded rope
In a noose surround your neck

Don’t kick the chair
It’s gonna get better
Don’t kick the chair
It can only get better

The Cave, Mumford and sons

It's empty in the valley of your heart
The sun, it rises slowly as you walk
Away from all the fears
And all the faults you've left behind

The harvest left no food for you to eat
You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see
But I have seen the same
I know the shame in your defeat

But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again

Because I have other things to fill my time
You take what is yours and I'll take mine
Now let me at the truth
Which will refresh my broken mind

So tie me to a post and block my ears
I can see widows and orphans through my tears
I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears

But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again

So come out of your cave walking on your hands
And see the world hanging upside down
You can understand dependence
When you know the maker's land

So make your siren's call
And sing all you want
I will not hear what you have to say

Because I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it's meant to be

And I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again

this is beautiful!

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