someone wrote me

"i think the only reason why I'm  angry... is because I'm  sad. Many people forget that i have feelings. i am not a "macho" man, I'm  not afraid to cry, i just have pent up anger that holds my tears back. i don't see why people see me as so little. i feel now as if "love" is a word of deception. i love with not only my heart but my spirit. i actually feel "connected" when i tell someone that i love them. i feel like a set of stairs or something, people use me and walk all over me just to get to their true goal/destination. i also believe that my anger has lead to hate. i feel so much hatred towards so many people. they annoy me yet i want to be known. it's to the point were i have come very very close to death. i also do not  believe in a heaven or a hell, because at times our world feels like both."

-this was written to me yesterday by a boy.