day 2

its sunday, ....i spent the weekend with the four boys who have NEVER let me down.
my favorites.

after all theese years, and all this year.
they've been so patient....they put up with jerrys shit, just like i had too.
this weekend was, fun, boring, confusing, mind blowing, unbelieveable and somber.
hahaa....litterally.
dont know how im gonna feel when i go to school tomoorow...its gonna be weird and sad.
lonely.

i was with him everyday of my lifee.
i was so anxsious to get outof class, just to kiss && hugg him.,
its gonna be hard.
dreadfull, && lonesome.
hurtful and somber.
woo hoo.
cant wait.

i think,

im finally done.

its gonna be hard, reaLLY HARD.
im gonna be hurt.
but i refuse to stay.

so...

since the last tme i wrote i this.
ive been thru everything i wished would never happen.
and everything i wish would have happend.
tooo long to explain right now,
im heart broken.
unhappy.
and....hurt.

dam,

soo, im officially single.....wee lasted...370 days.....wow.
deeepressed ouutaaa my mind MUCH?....

ANDY,

"Now I'm stuck here freestying about something that's dead
what you called love was really lust instead.
thinking twice about all the shit that you said,
all the lines of love that you still haven't read.
I know you know, you just put it in the back of your head
yeah you had me pursuaded, and well you had me led.

Sit down, and write this shit down,
I'm walking on this bridge on the other side of town.
and it's your voice it's the only sound
that has my mind wrapped around,
I'm keeping my head down,
in directions towards the ground.

Any place can I feel safer?
no, but you can't understand, even if it's writtten down on paper
staring up right at you, you'll just put it off till later
ironically our love was our biggest hater. "



GIRL KNOWS WHATS UPPPP.

ok so,

minor set back,
not starting school till the fifteeenth.
woo hoo.


amistad.
boo hoo.
:[

11:46 pm

the night b4 my first day of my senior year.
my last first day of high school.
depressing?
orrrrr relieved?
dont know yet,
all i know im depressed that my sorry, lazzy ass didnt do good theese past years and now i have tu go to a sorry ass school to get my credits.
hopefully second semester go bakk to indio, and graduate with my class, my beloved friends
and have the time of my life on grad night.
hopfully.



i have my faith, family, god...&& sheyla<3>

insane.

Spitting fire back and forth now
Times have changed in just a few months
Neighbors complaining from the fights
And why can't things be the same
And maybe I'm just a little bit cautious
Of what I'm gonna say
When I tell you I can't live this way
But I don't know what to expect
From someone who's so insane
Why can't I get through the night
Without another fight?
I'm tired of the hurting
Is it really worth it?
Am I all alone again?
'Cause I am kind of feeling
Like I'm screaming with my mouth shut
When it's really open
The only noises in my head
Are consumed of your voice
From all the pain and hatred
How long can you kick somebody down
Before a foot breaks?
And I knew that you would fabricate
This situation just for the sake of
Your need for attention
And I'm sick of always being the one
To always break down
Always melt down in the end
And maybe this time
It's a sign that independence and I
Are finally catching on
I don't need you to rely on

Spitting fire back and forth now
Times have changed in just a few months

please remeber december <3

I feel a separation coming on
'Cause I know you want to be moving on
I wish it would snow tonight
You'd pull me in, avoid a fight
'Cause I feel a separation coming on

Just prove that there is nothing left to try
'Cause the truth, I'd rather we just both deny
You kiss me with those open eyes
It says so much, it's no surprise to you
But I've got something left inside

Don't surrender, surrender, surrender
Please remember, remember December
We were so in love back then
Now you're listening to what they say
Don't go that way
Remember, remember December
Don't surrender

You said, you wouldn't let them change your mind
'Cause when we're together, fire melts the ice
Our hearts are both on overdrive
Come with me, let's run tonight
Don't let these memories get left behind

Don't surrender, surrender, surrender
Please remember, remember December
We were so in love back then
Now you're listening to what they say
Don't go that way
Remember, remember December
Please remember

I remember us together
With a promise of forever
We can do this, fight the pressure
Please remember December

Don't surrender, surrender, surrender
Please remember, remember December
We were so in love back then
Now you're listening to what they say
Don't go that way
Remember, remember December
Please remember
Don't surrender

Favorites.

any whoooo...

havent gone uh sleeep, couldnt really...

ahhh..insomniaaa....

hopefully goig too mah babyyys house tuh day, gottuh take care of summ stuff, gottuh et my dam battery fixked or replaced for our trip tuh frisco:}

get a USB cable to connet to the computer from my camera.

mmmm, what else is on my schedual, i gottuh packk tumorrow....and the swaaap meeet;}

the beeener market, after jair bear getss off of werkkk....

ughh if only my mother would get upp, id bee overr there alredyyyy, but nope, shee'l prolly end upp waking up at about 2:00 pm and being ina NOT SO GOOD MOOD and not wanna take me:/
but lets hope she wake sup ina good mood...

hopefully.

mmmm, what else....i wonder what my sisters did last night, why do i want to bee with them when

im away from them, and wanna be as FAR AWAY from them when im with them?

i dont get it

i have yet to figger that one out...

im reallly really tired, and i realy realy wanna go tuh sleep,...

i cant.

gahhhhh....

well any way, i'll prolly post more stuff right now, sooo yeah..

lets hope my dayyyy is great:}

&&&

seeyuhlayduh ;)

"Forget them, Wendy. Forget them all. Come with me where you'll never, never have to worry about grown up things again."

"Never is an awfully long time."

Im a Mouse,

DUH?!

are you serrious?

https://www.shakeweight.com/


the fuuck?

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known

ittttt wazzzz

my berrrthday on the 6th:}
im now oficcially 17 years old

<3333

SHE

AINT GOT SHIT ON ME;)

Amy Fucking G<3333

this girl is a jeeeeeen-yus.

"Let's take a walk, let's talk, let's be together

Fuck you and the blissful sunshine I need the aggravated weather

The way we sit close on your brown sofa that's made of leather

Hey your girl loves you, saying sorry doesn't make it all better

You think one day she might walk out and leave you, I bet you won't go get her..

Sometimes I predict you'll eventually regret her

and maybe wish you fucking never even met her"

-Amy.G.huggs<3333

fuhk man,

yes, i dont like you.

Best Part of BELIEVE is the

LIE
motherfuckers.

holy tah lito

"&&

you gotta smile that can light up thins whole town, i havent seen it for a while since she brought you down.
you say yopur fine.
i said i know you better then that,
hey watcha doing with a girl like that?!"

i figured it out.

its a hundred foot deep hole in the ground, that im standing in. ive dugg myself toooo too deep, again...and if you ask me, love isnt at all what everyone says it is...its horrible.
like... "what were you thinking?!"
jeeeeeezus. kidd,

but back to the hole in the ground.
this, somber,sad, depressing, down,dreary, dull, and horrrible hole.
i cantt get out of,
ivee hittt rock bottom, yeup thats a good way too put it.
its phisically, mentally && emotionally impossible to get out of this situation.
i cant just leave! for crying out loud! i love him!

&& her,

this breaks my heart the most.
ive been there:[
too, too many times.

Im that girl too,

:/

Jeezus,

S.A.V.E.J.I.M

vero...

i miss you girl...
where are you?..
what happened..

do you remember any of us?

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

some days i wake up feeling that i don't need you,thinking about how much simpler my life would be if it wasn't for you.other days i wake up not knowing where i'd be without you,feeling like i'd die if you weren't near.it's a constant pull of opposites,& i know you feel it too.one day it's heaven,one day it's hell.is this right?is this the way its supposed to be?
Posted by estefania.
at 8:59 PM

my dear friend steff wrote this, but i feel exactly,emotionally the sameee way.

sooo,

another?
hmm, wonder how they'll doo.
dont worry about what im taling about...ugh.

:/

"He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night"

"Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do"

nuff' sed

you know,

im glad your

my best friend.

melBarbers♥

"I can use somebody, someone like you and all you know and how you speak."

sheyla i promise,

♥

"life is too short to be walkin around with your eyes in the ground and sadness on your shoulders, you have to look up and live it up"

serio

my life.

daddy<3

Good Daddy won't smoke no weed
Until the bass cradles her back to sleep
Then he can stake his mack while she takes a nap
To the sweet pretty sounds of the gangster rap
Shhh, the high hats are angel's voices
They keep her distracted
From the stranger's voices
Escape is a paradox
Because her childhood is locked in that music box

Daddies drive around, Mommies work nightshift
Sweet dreams, sweet little precious
Lay down in that music box
Escape in the sound of that music box

--------------------------

And when Daddy picks Mommy up they fight
They fight about money, they fight about life
So she concentrates so so hard on the music
And loses herself inside of the bass and the movement

Daddies drive around, Mommies work nightshift
Sweet dreams, sweet little precious
Lay down in that music box
Escape in the sound of that music box

i love you sheyla<3

love is a bitch. from personal experience boo boo its hard to do what you have to do. it is the most exhausting painful thing you'll ever do if it reaches to that point.....i LOVE nick ash, but as much as i loved him i had to let go,...it was reaaly hard and you know how much i cried...but i had to do what i had to do...when someone doesnt give you exactly what you're lookin for you CANT stay...as much ass you love them with every force of ur body, and even though you cant stay away...you have to do what you have to do, not just for his crazy ass but most importantly YOU!....

forever and almost always

So you'll be mine
Forever and almost always
And I'll be fine
Just love me when you can
And I'll wait patiently
I'll wake up everyday
Just hoping that you still care

In the corner of my mind I know too well
Oh, that surely even I deserve the best
But instead of leaving
I just put the issue to bed
And outta my head

Oh, and just when I believe
You've changed for good
Well, you go and prove me wrong
Just like I knew you would
When I run out of second chances
You give me that look
And you're off the hook

Because you're mine
Forever and almost always
When I'm fine
Just love me when you can
And I'll wait patiently
I'll wake up everyday
Just hoping that you'll still care

What am I still doing here

It's all becoming so clear

You'll be mine
Forever and almost always
It ain't right
To just love me when you can
I won't wait patiently
Or wake up everyday
Just hoping that you still care

Forever and almost always
No, it ain't right
To just love me when you can, baby
Ain't gonna wait patiently
I won't wake up everyday
Just hoping that you still care

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

:D

so damm

guud luck finding a girl, who wil love you more then me;]

I wanna make you smile
Whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All i wanna do, is grow old with you

I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
So, it could be so nice growing old with you,....

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you
Feed you
Even let you hold the remote control.

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
Oh I could be the [wo]man that grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you.

the greatest movie<3

"Like Peas && Carrots" ♥

I'm gonna do it

just watch me, Just watch me....

from this toooo THAT?!

woahhh,<333

heee he<33

mah lips like shooo-gah ;)

im hungry:/

lmao!!!

ughhh:[

MMMM:/

E.M.A?!
whaaa happen?!
:[

imissyouguysmorethenyouthink
D:

yes<3

alright?...hahah..

yeah...thats EXACTLY what i was looking how to get rid of ;]

hahahah....

not anyyyyyyymore

Mmm, no more settling for less
I'm looking for that kind of man
That's gonna give his best, cause I'm giving my best
A man that wants to cherish this
And knows exactly how to woo me
Not some silly little boy
Who wants my goodies cause he took me to the movies

Jake&Amir<33 &....viny:)

Not Anymore<3

"Well I've been the super girlfriend
Let you think that nothing bothered me
Like when you go out with your friends
And people bring me back the stories
Them stories bout them other girls
Like this one, and that one, and those three
So when I ask a simple question (where was you last nite?)
You wanna yell and scream and try to flip it on me"

wannnt

what i can LIVE off of<---