FML.

MERRY FUCKIN CHRISTMAS
i woke up to everyone screaming,.....8:00 in the morning and everyones yelling,...why...becuase my mothers boyFriend is here..,my sister ruined my day,....we were all screaming at the top of our lungs my mom shouting at the top of her lungs saying she "hates us" and "doesnt want to bee here" aand then my papa comes and yells at my mom for having her boyfriend here, my mom takes off with him for 3 days at a time and leaves us here,and she doesnt expect us to be mad,...my papa went off on her and accidentally hit her with the car door,then all hell broke loose,"im gonna call the cops" this and that,.....and "i hate you dad" "fuck you" THIS AND THAAAT....thenn my mother throws my sister out of the house for saying she doesnt want to be here with my mom,....everyone wa scrying and yelling,..i just did know what to do,.i dont know what to do anymore,...anissa raeann is the devil,...no its noyt funny ,its not a joke, shes a mean grl and doesnt deserve a chr9istmas,she doesnt deserve family,she doesnt deserve people to love her, not at all...shes the biggest bitch ive EVER met in my whole 16 years of living.i hate her with all my heart and spould she can DIE AND BURN IN HELL...idgaf about her anymore,shes not apart of me anymore,i dont wanna adress her as "family" anymore,...she's not my family..family doesnt doo or say the things she says and does to me....she deserves nothing.
FUCK YOU ANISSA RAEANN ELISARRARAS

she makess me proud, theres sumthin about her.

dont worry i got it, imma steal your heart, aint nooo doubt about itt....

;)

blah

poor me

It goes, pour me another, so I could forget you now

Pour me another, so I could come let you down

Pour me another, so I can remember how

True that I am to this addiction of you

Drink it all away, numb it down to none

Stay awake tonight and wait for the sun

You say you hate your life, you ain't the only one

Let your frustration out the gate and watch the pony run

One double, for the hungar and the struggle

Two for the fool trying to pull apart the puzzle

Three now I smile while I wait for your rebuttle

By the fourth shot, I'm just another child in a bubble

Trying to play with the passion and the placement

Just to see what these people let him get away with

Still trying to climb a mountain for you

Hammer in my hand, still pounding on a screw

She don't listen so he don't speak no more

Nobody's winning 'cause neither is keeping score

Don't wanna think no more, just let me drink some more

Pour me another, cause I can still see the floor

fuck you

fuck this,

fuckk himm,

fuck herrr,

fuck my life,

fuck the weather,

fuck school,

fuck home,

fuck my sisters,

fuck my grandmother,

fuck best friends.

Fuck off,

fuck this,

fuck this,

fuck this,

fuck this,

fuck this,

fuck this,

fuuuuuuuucccckkkkkkkk schoooooooool!!!!!

i gotta find my balance.

beLIEve

I'm losing myself Trying to compete With everyone else Instead of just being me, I don't know where to turn I've been stuck in this routine I need to change my ways Instead of always being weak I don't wanna be afraid I wanna wake up feeling beautiful, TodayAnd know that I'm okay Cause everyone's perfect in unusual Ways you see I just wanna believe in me The mirror can lie Doesn't show you what's inside And it, it can tell you your full of life It's amazing what you can hide Just by putting on a smileI don't wanna be afraid I wanna wake up feeling beautiful Today And know that I'm okay Cause everyone's perfect in unusual Ways you see I just wanna believe in me I'm quickly finding out I'm not about to break down... Not today I guess I always knew That I had all the strengthTo make it through Not gonna be afraid I'm gonna wake up feeling beautiful Today And know that I'm okay Cause everyone's perfect in unusual Ways you see Now, now I believe in me.

i wannaa

Sticks and Stones and Weed and Bones

FerstPeriod.JayCub.

No one on the corner has swagggah likee us.

summertime,

About 7:30
On a saturday
I was waitin'
For the phone
And hoping
You would say
To get dressed
And look you
Your best for me
About every night
Before I go to bed
I take another look at
What you took and said
Thinkin' more or less
The more regress for me
Now it feels
Like forever
It's all been a dream
But I wonder
Do you think of me?
Early in the mornin'
Late in the evenin'
Back in
That summertime
When you were mine
You see
You made me so crazy
Shocked and amazed me
You were my tear to cry
My lullaby to sing
Now I wanna be
I gotta be your girl
I just wanna be
I gotta be your girl
So when you told me
Baby
That you needed time
Well
Did you mean to say
You needed
Piece of mind
Cause well
You cheated me
And treated me so bad
If I could take it back
I know I would for sure
Back to rainy nights
And kisses at my door
Remember whens and now
And thens we had
And now I'm not mistaken
It is what it seems
But I wonder
Would you still want me
Early in the mornin'
Late in the evenin'
Back in
That summertime
When you were mine
You see
You made me so crazy
Shocked and amazed me
You were my tear to cry
My lullaby to sing
Now I wanna be
I gotta be your girl
I just wanna be
I gotta be your girl

I been talking bout
You leavin' me
Decivin' me
I been thinkin' bout
You shaken me
Heart braken me
I been
Dreamin' awayyyyyyyy
Would you still want me...

i must hav done something right,

I just can't get you off my mind...why would I even try?, Cause even when I close my eyes I dream about you all the time, I just always wanna have you right here By my side The futures near But never certain I must've done something right To deserve you in my life I must've done something right along the way And even if the moon fell down tonight There'd be nothing to worry about at all Becasuse you make the whole world shine As long as your here Everything will be alright.

Without you

I'm just me,

One final note,

Its time to go But there's just one thing that i want you to know I wanna thank you for everything without you I probly wouldnt be singing And I know that I'll be gone for a while But you know that I'll be missing your smiles We know all good things must come to an end But I know that I'll be your eternal friend Cuz I, I cant see myself without you No I dont know, what it'd be to live without you And I cant see myself living without you My journey starts But you know you'll be forever in my heart Because I cant live without your love Everyday I am wishing for your hug And I know that I'll be gone for a while But you know that I'll be missing your smiles We know all good things must come to an end But I know that I'll be your eternal friend Cuz I, I cant see myself with out you No I dont know, what I'd be to live without you And I cant see myself living without you No I dont know, what i'd be to live without you know, what i'd be to live without you
And then life without you....
♥

Mine

there is no specific order to theese pictures, but i love you all, you are my light, my sunshine, my loves, always.

mommyyyy

sisterrrrr<3 font="">

fifanyyyy and nini my sisterrrs <33 font="">

sammyy the older brother i always wanted:}

sheyla,the nicest coolest girl i know<3 font="">

alexx and adiree

thebrothersOLIVARES<333 font="">

brother,friend,enemy,loveeee<3: font="">

sistersss are foreverrrr.

momayyy!:D

brother :}

those aree summ fattyyyyy's<3333 font="">

sisterrrrrrrrrs:} :} :}

cousin abrina and alec:]

sitorrrrsssss:}

alysssssaaaaaaa<333 font="">

leiahhhhhhh<333 font="">

momay!

dadddyyyy:[the only man in the world that i turst.

papaaaaaa<3 font="" i="" man="" of="" other="" out="" the="" turst.="" two="">

friendsss areeeee my everythings.

blooooodd<3333 brother="" brotherr.="" brotherr="" font="">

love of my life,leilani<333 font="">

S.A.V.E  foralways

nigggaaaaaaaaa:}

fanyyyyy mae!

Auntie LindsmTio Adrian && the love of my lifee<3 font="">

Brother|Enemy

my most favorite picture in the world.

esherrrrrr<3 class="Apple-style-span" font="" style="font-style: italic;">foralways

dramaville

drrrrrrrraaaaaamaaaaaa,forserioooo,thats what the last couple of days have been full of:/

ughhh,& i hate it......theres no more Slickness && The Great One yeah me and brianna "broke up" a g a i a n...idk she's just dramaaaaaa so im better offfff yuh know?....any way,todae im gunna go to the movies with an old frined:}

june-yerrrrrr!!!! :D :D im suuperr excited!!! havent seenem ina long time,dang thattt boy! hahah memorrrieeees:} lol......haha welll...mmmmm what else is newwww.....im going to frisco♥ for christmas brake:D likee yayyyyy!!!!! haha ima bee away from gerrardo for a long time :P lol.....i wonder what i'll get for christmasssss...i want an ipod likeeeeee reallllyyy baddd:/ i miss my bayy beeeee<33>

haha jk. wwell im done

guh byee:}

everythings gunna bee okayy<33

I'm

just a little bit Caught in the middle, Life is a maze And love is a riddle. I don't know where to go, I can't do it alone (I've tried) And I don't know why. Im just a little girl Lost in the moment, I'm so scared But don't show it I can't figure it out, It's bringing me down I knowI've got to let it go And just enjoy the show......

mmmmm mmm mm

I'm lyin' here on the floor where you left me
I think I took too much I'm crying here, what have you done?
I thought it would be fun
I can't stay on your life support,
There's a shortage in the switch
I can't stay on your morphine,'Cause it's making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again,
But shes being a little bitchI think
I'll get outta here, where I can
Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better,
You keep makin' me ill
I haven't moved from the spot where you left me
This must be a bad trip
All of the other pills, they were different
Maybe I should get some help
I can't stay on your life support,
There's a shortage in the switch
I can't stay on your morphine,
'Cause it's making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again,
But shes being a little bitch
I think I'll get outta here, where I can
Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better,
You keep makin' me ill

chelalalalalaaaa :}

dowwwn asss hynuh:}

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

It's Been too Long

since i've seen my better half,
sometimes you gotta let it go close your eyes and let it crash.

I DONT BELIEVE YOU.

I don't mind it

I don't mind at all

It's like you're the swing set

And I'm the kid that falls

It's like the way we fight

The times I've cried

We come to blows

And every night

The passion's there

So it's got to be right

Right?

No, I don't believe you

When you say don't come around here no more

I won't remind you

You said we wouldn't be apart

No, I don't believe you

When you say you don't need me anymore

So don't pretend to

Not love me at all

I don't mind it

I still don't mind at all

It's like one of those bad dreams

When you can't wake up

It looks like you've given up

You've had enough

But I want more

&& No I won't stop

cause I just know

You'll come around.....

Right?

No, I don't believe you

When you say don't come around here no more

I won't remind you

You said we wouldn't be apart

No, I don't believe you

When you say you don't need me anymore

So don't pretend to

Not love me at all

Just don't stand there and watch me fall

Because I still don't mind at all

It's like the way we fight

The times I've cried

We come to blows

And every night

The passion's there

So it's got to be right,

Right?

No, I don't believe you

When you say don't come around here no more

I won't remind you

You said we wouldn't be apart

No, I don't believe you

When you say you don't need me anymore

So don't pretend to

Not love me at all

I don't believe you

she's

heeeere<3
&& i love herrr...
i love her i love her i lover her!
myyy guuudnesssssss:}
more thenn anything right nowww:}

i didnt know

that i could love a person that i just met,....soo much...